If you are here then I am sorry.
If you are reading these words, then it means that you suffer with health anxiety and I would not wish that nightmare on anyone.
When I think back to my very darkest days, where I was in the grip of fear and obsessing over every single symptom and sensation, genuinely believing I was dying, it’s all one big blur.
I can remember my fears vividly, make no mistake, but the rest of my life at that time… not so much.
I was completely consumed in my health anxiety hell bubble and it was hard to focus on anything else, as I am sure you know.
Since opening up online about my own experience with health anxiety and how it ruled my life for many years, there is one type of message I get over and over again:
“I don’t understand how you know exactly how I am feeling.”
“I don’t know how you are able to put into words what I have not been able to my whole life.”
I know how mind-bending it can be, seeing the feelings you have suffered with for years put into words in front of your eyes.
Feelings that you have suffered with on your own.
You may feel sweet relief, knowing that you are not alone and there are actually other humans out there who are the same as you, but you may also feel waves of overwhelming emotion bubble up as this realization sinks in.
It’s one thing to see the words “You are not alone” another thing entirely to actually believe them, to feel them with all your heart.
I don’t create content that is relatable af because I have some secret powers.
The secret is simple… I was you.
I was exactly where you may be, lost in a world of fear that had me stuck and unable to move forward.
Health anxiety isn’t just worrying about your health, oh no.
Health anxiety is genuinely believing that your days on earth are numbered and that any day now your biggest fears will come true.
Trying to focus on anything feels like trying to walk on ice as you continually lose your footing and end up back on Google and those online forums that send spikes of fear through your body as the addiction grows.
Telling a hypochondriac to relax is like hoping a toddler will fall asleep after hyping them up on sugar.
We don’t relax, our job is to worry, it is all we know.
I have thought about this book for a while.
I have suffered so terribly with health anxiety over the years that I know how much relief can come from simply reading someone else’s story.
In my first book, "Help! Why Am I So Anxious?!" I share my story living with GAD, panic disorder and I touch on health anxiety too. I wrote my second book, my "Anxiety A to Z" Encyclopedia as your new daily reference as I know the Googling habit gets you nowhere.
I realized that I wanted to write another book… this time focusing solely on my health anxiety story from when I was a teen until now.
It’s going to be a ride for both of us.
I hope that if you have never believed the words “You are not alone” or still feel some skepticism come up when you do see them, that this book will prove to you that you are not.
See how you feel by the end of it.
This book is for you if:
• Every single day you are worrying about a symptom/s
• You are finding it hard to be present and live your day to day life as your mind is consumed in mind-numbing fear
• You genuinely believe that you are dying and are waiting for it to be “confirmed”
• You actively avoid shows/books and anything else that could trigger a health anxiety spiral
• When you do hear about illness you automatically believe you have it too and may even start experiencing the same symptoms
• You either live at the doctor or are constantly canceling appointments
• You Google or check your body to the point you feel like you are losing your mind
• You feel extremely low, not able to believe that any other way of life is truly possible